Saturday, November 21, 2020

B A C K S T A G E

 


Unless 

 

you've been backstage for a performance

 


 

 

you will never know 

 

what goes into the staging

 

of

 

a person's story.

 


 
As the curtain of 2020 has risen

we have seen 
 
resilience, collaboration, innovation
 
as well as
 
defeat, division and personal loss.
 
You can be in line at the gas pump
 
or in the parking lot of a home improvement store
 
and a complete stranger will have no problem
 
insulting you
 
lashing out - even threatening you
 
or 
 
breaking down in front of you.  

You never know what has gone on

B A C K S T A G E 

for 
 
a performance as such.

That is why I've changed course.
 
From the political scene to the pandemic
 
I observe from my theatre seat
 
and I wonder and I weep
 
but all it took was for
 
one man

in his mid-70s
 
standing in front of me in line 
 
buying bottled water

to rant 
 
about the closure of his business
 
to question my use of a mask and goggles

and then to




I read his script.
 
 And the uncanny thing about it is

it 
 
was my script.
 
The muffled words sucking in and puffing out 
 
from behind his mask,
 
"I'm so sorry but it's been so hard. I'm losing everything. I deeply apologize" 

were like a tinnitus in my ears

that resonated his pain with mine.
 
His admission ticket of humility 
 
wasn't for a seat for the final act

but 
 
for entrance into the darkness 
 
of 
 
the corridors 
 
of 
 
our humanity.
 
 



 

 

14 comments:

Salty Pumpkin Studio said...

Thoughtful post, puts the pandemic is a way that is more comfortable to cope with. Thank you.
And I now want a dress with layered tulle skirt.

Stacy said...

Some days it's just all too much, the stories of despair, pain and loss and amidst that, stories of hope and love. I'm trying to see the good through it all and hoping for better days to come for all of us.

Red Rose Alley said...

Anita, this must have been a heartfelt moment for you. It sounds like he needed to talk and just be comforted right then, having lost everything, and who better to be in back of him than a beautiful soul who is understanding and caring? This has been a difficult time for so many. Your little stage is so quaint, I love it. There really is something magical about it. Yes, people are lashing out these days, and I've experienced it firsthand with my own neighbor. But you always bounce back, forgive, and remain in hope and love. And now, I want to share with you something that Jess gave me years ago. I feel these words are meant for you and they may be comforting to hear. (sending it through e-mail).

~Sheri

mary tindukasiri said...

Hi Anita, I needed to hear this. I silently rant and rave at those who cross my path at the gas station or any other small "run in/run out" store who have the arrogance of not bothering to wear a mask, to care for their neighbor or fellow shopper. Their emboldened sense of entitlement makes me angry. But the truth is that I do not know their back stage realities.......you have reminded me to view all with compassion. Thank you. xoxo Mary

Junkchiccottage said...

This is so true. 2020 has been a performance for all of us to see what we can sustain and function with in our world. We have all learned coping skills and patience. Many of us have seen the worst of humanity and many of us have seen the best of humanity. Everything in life is a lesson and we are it's students. Let's hope the majority of us have learned tolerance and love and acceptance. Very beautiful post Anita.
xoxo Kris

Corina said...


Thank you xx Your words resonate with me.
The raw truth and superficial layers are peeled back and brings us back to real connection and humanity. It's the voice of fear that speaks through those actions. Only those who've been there can see and feel it.
You are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing. Much love Corina

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

This post touched my heart. We don't know what others are going through. We just hear or see snippets and sometimes it can feel so overwhelming. My heart aches, tears fall and I pray. Thanks for sharing this, a reminder how we all need to be kind. We may not have not walked in the other person's shoes and even if we have or are, we can all show empathy, give comfort and kindness when and where we can. ~ FlowerLady

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Deanna Rabe said...

Yes, thank you for sharing....

La Contessa said...

WELL, this SET THE STAGE for TODAY!
BEAUTIFULLY SAID as usual and the MUSIC!!
How kind of YOU to share your story with us..............XX

Carla from The River said...

Well said.. thank you for sharing. And very true. I know several like the 70 year old man.
xx oo
Praying!!

Jeanie said...

This is such an incredibly powerful post, Anita, and I am grateful you shared it. I also am grateful that this man, who had lost so much, had the good fortune to be in your line -- to have found someone who listened, who was compassionate, who reached out. You're right -- we don't always know the backstory.

Happy Thanksgiving, my friend. I miss you.

It's me said...

Anita !!?...you are so special for me....beautiful words you write ...we live in a strange world...hope everything will going better soon....almost Christmas.....how? And with who?....so strange....please stay positive and health....I also try this everyday....love you my friend 🍀💕🍀💕🙏💕🍀💕🍀warm hugs from me and Leaf...

Michelle May-The Raspberry Rabbits said...

Beautiful words from a beautiful soul who sees through the eyes of source and can spread the light.
Love you sweet friend.