Thursday, June 6, 2013

Dream Maker - Heart Breaker

It wasn't until years later

when I started to write


that Father's Day

when she died

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that I saw 

 As my father and I 

the funebrial sky

for the moon and stars

we hoped

for a final grasp

of our past

that we could 

no longer behold.


But now I know 

that when you look at

any object

what you're really seeing

is its traveling reflection 

of light.

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you're not seeing

the moon as it is now

 but as it was

its distance of 

time ago.

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And like moms


  we can still see  

the luminosity of a star

long extinguished

traveling from its

original seat in 

light years distance

reaching back to 

after its last flicker of



Two weeks later

my dad's existence

began its voyage

in light years

and now every time 

I look at a star 

I see its pulsating waves



jerilanders said...

I can't believe I am the first one here.That is quite a remarkable way you have with words.I nearly envision your mother as the constant twinkling of a star, that never, ever fades from your vision, or your heart.

VM Creation Atelier said...


Your post touches me so deeply....

How unbeliveble wonderful tribute to your Mom!
You express your feelings so special.

I believe in LIGHT:)*

Wish you beautiful weekend,


Bonnie said...

Anita, Your post is a beautiful tribute. Mother's never leave us. They remain so close. Have a wonderful evening sweet lady. Bonnie

Jade said...

Oh Anita, what a heart breaking post always fill my heart with so much love & joy! Thank you soooo much - you are a shining star too! Have a wonderful weekend,

hugs Jade

Kelly said...

Just BEAUTIFUL Anita!!! Such emotion and love!!! May You ALWAYS have those heavenly stars twinkling along to the beat of your hearts sweet memories of special days spent with two wonderful and unforgettable people in your life.<3

YONKS said...

So beautiful Anita. You gave a new perspective to my losing my mum. She died when I was just 18. I have thought about her a lot lately, more than over the past few decades. Maybe it's her light illuminating my way, I know it, not maybe. She never really left, neither did yours. The photo of your mum is so beautiful.
Thank you Anita.
Your words mean so much to me.

Red Rose Alley said...

Sweet Anita,
Yes, the light still lives on in the ones we lost and loved. It's almost Father's Day, and I have been thinking about my dad. I was so young when he left - only 28 (Jess' age).

The stars are fascinating to me, and the picture of the children looking up at the stars melted my heart.

A beautiful post today. You always send me to another world with your writing, and it is a place that we all need to be. A place of truth, hope, and love.


1 said...

What a beautiful and profound comparison. It made me smile to think of my father in those terms and for that I can not thank you enough.
Extraordinary Anita.

Sarah said...

Anita, your posts never cease to amaze me and stir emotions deep within. This one is without equal! "I look at a star I see its pulsating waves flash ..." What a beautiful way to honor your parents. I will long keep this post in my thoughts as I look up to the night sky.

Leslie said...

ANITA.. this has me totally teared up.. This is an amazing piece or writing as well as the sweetest tribute to your mom. It's true.. we take on something different over time and I believe our loved ones are always there. Focus on the light..


Suz said...

Sad but beautiful. It touched me and now I have a new way of looking at my mom.

Michelle May-The Raspberry Rabbits said...

Oh are so beautiful. Your writing always touches my soul.
Hugs, light, love to you dear one.

Susan ~ Southern Fascinations said...

Anita...a lovely tribute to your parents. Even though mine left their earthly bodies over 30 years ago, their love and strength continue to light my way. Your words were the loveliest of poetry, your images divine...and your love for your parents shone brilliantly. Peace to you...Susan

highheeledlife said...

Beautifully written! Our loved ones remain close by ... They never really leave... Their soul waits for us to complete our earthly journey.. And reunite. stars are a wonderful reminder that our love and their love for us shines on. Many blessings mon ami.. c. (HHL)

A Magical Whimsy said...

Lead kindly light....
The stars are brightly shining...
It is the night of our dear Savior's birth...

As with the Savior, our parents lights are our guiding stars...

Thank you for this gloriously, eternal post.

It is good to be reminded they are beyond the cares of this world.

Star light, Star Bright
Wish I may, Wish I might

So many times as as child I would look up at the stars and say my secret wish.

There will be signs in the heavens at the Lord's return.

I wonder how many eons in advance those signs have to travel before they reach the Earth, or will God, in someway, make that journey from beyond the heavens an instantaneous one? I have pondered on this thought. I guess we will just have to 'wait and see'.

Have a blessed Friday and lovely weekend my dear friend!

Sandy at You May Be Wandering said...

Absolutely beautiful, Anita...thank you.


Queen Of The Armchair aka Dzintra Stitcheries said...

Oh Anita how beautiful....those STARS that are never too far away from us....a very loving tribute...this really touched my HEART!!!

Oh I am just over from putting up a new post on my's wonderful to be able to get in through here but I shall keep trying on my ipad....

A coolish day today and I'm itching to do some sewing but alas dear JoJo will be home soon....I will try to start on that new little project I have just blogged....

Happy Friday to you dearest....Love to you, Dzintra xo

Simplement ... said...

Ceux qui se sont envolés ne cessent jamais de nous éclairer et de nous protéger ...
Leur lumière nous guide et nous rassure lorsque le temps se fait trop gris et nous aide à retrouver le bon chemin.
Gros bisous chère Anita

Je vais essayer moi aussi le filet à papillons ...

Unknown said...

What a lovely tribute and how touching. It was our mothers' birthday on Wednesday so it is a very bitter sweet post for us. Just fabulous Anita. You are the best with words. Have a fabulous Friday.
Best wishes Molly

Jade said...

The words about your Mom and Dad touched my heart, my dear friend......thank you so much for sharing this!!! And thank you sooooo much for your lovely comment! I have taken the pictures on last sunday.........I love this old Bavarian farmhouses and all the animals around. It´s a little paradise. Have a wonderful weekend,

hugs Jade

Deana Sidney said...

What an amazing metaphor. The life of a star that continues to blaze after it's gone and the life of a loved one that lights the spirit after the corporeal being is no more. They live as long as those who love them remember.

I wrote a story as a kid once about bottled memories one could pour out when one wanted to refresh them ... how lovely it would be if we could!

Here's to all those stars that still blaze in the firmament and in our hearts.

Rattus Scribus said...

This is beautiful poetic tribute to your mom and dad. Their memory, their love still shines their light in we who are still here. And you my love shine their light and your own.

Barbara said...

Oh Anita, what a beautiful but heartbreaking post. You have such a way with words. Thank you for sharing this. Barbara xxx

French Girl in Seattle said...

Un très bel hommage à tes parents, Anita. Tu m'as touchée ce matin... Veronique (French Girl in Seattle)

French Girl in Seattle said...

Un très bel hommage à tes parents, Anita. Tu m'as touchée ce matin... Veronique (French Girl in Seattle)

French Girl in Seattle said...

Un très bel hommage à tes parents, Anita. Tu m'as touchée ce matin... Veronique (French Girl in Seattle)

Unknown said...

Such beauty in your every word, Anita...tender and loving...your Mom must have been a very special lady...
Audrey Hepburn singing Moon River is a favourite of lovely daughter downloaded it to a cd with other Audrey loveliness after my Dad died, she said to make me smile :-)
Have a wonderful weekend lovely lady.

"Create Beauty" said...

Oh yes, the LIGHT never fades, it is eternal isn't it my dear?

What a wonder-filled poetic post of beauty and longing. How thankful I am for the LIGHT of the world, who was in the beginning and whose light shines in you.

~ Violet

vicki archer said...

Beautiful Anita... Sensitive, feeling and very poignant...
Have a wonderful weekend,

Unknown said...

So beautiful! So consoling.
Your boundless love is our gift.
Life...dream maker.
Death...heart breaker.
Eternity is light!
oh...Anita...oh so dear, Anita.

renae said...

Oh a new post. You continue to surprise me. I thought I was headed to the previous post and here is a new one. I had to look up "funebrial". Assumed it has something to do with a funeral. When my Dad passed I cried and cried the night before the viewing / wake. I just had to get it out. After that I wasn't sad. My Dad worked out of town when I was young and so I just pretended he was out of town. It worked. I mourned but it was suited. Dad had Parkinson's for his last 18 years of his life. Eventho absent at my youth and ill at my adulthood, he was a tremendous man, tremendous.

Thank you for bringing my Dad's memory back today. Appropriate timing and such, too. I am more than thrilled with the lavender lipstick. A great find, a great one.

Fabulous weekend, dear!!!!!

Marilyn Leslie said...

Thank you for this lovely post. I 've been thinking a lot about my mother recently; just seeing things that remind me of her. She loved picnics, babies and fragrant rosses.

Anonymous said...

I understood each and every word of this exquisite post, Anita, beautifully expressed as always.

Two words stand out for me and I take them with me on this day, "traveling reflection."

Just yesterday morning I read this during my quiet time,

"What then? Shall we sit idly down and say
The night has come; it is no longer day?
Yet as the evening twilight fades away,
The sky is filled with stars, invisible to day."

Little did I know I would be sharing it with you today.
Love and blessings, friend.

It's me said...

Sad but so so so beautiful post Anita !!!! you darling......mijn lieve vriendin ver weg op deze wereld...maar iedere dag in mijn hart....liefs!!

Down by the sea said...

A beautiful post Anita and a lovely tribute to your parents. i will look at the stars night and think of my parents too.
Sarah x

Leslie Harris said...

This post was so powerful. I remember Moon River from my childhood and hearing it accompany your words was so stirring. What a lovely tribute to your parents, it makes me happy to see how you've found peace and beauty out of your losses.
Lesle aka gwen moss

Elaine said...

Yes, everything is reflected in light and aren't we fortunate that
it is? We surely see such beauty in the heavens.

And your images are wonderful. I love the one of the boat snd the bird. I repinned it!

Mara said...

Dear Anita,

I love your work - so whimsically deep! Would you mind sharing your favorite software for creating GIF's and/or your source for pre-made GIF's?



Anonymous said...

what a special
gathering of
heart and soul
for that first
v a len tine...

The Quintessential Magpie said...

This was so lovely, Anita. I enjoyed every word.



Red Rose Alley said...

Oh Anita,
I just heard the song on here, and I am going to e-mail you. This is my favorite song.


M.A. the 2nd ~ Frances Russell said...

Dearest Anita what a beautiful and magical post and tribute to your mum. You have the most special way of looking at life and it is truly a gift that you always share with others. My best wishes to you my friend.

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Anita,

Such a beautiful tribute, dear friend to your lovely parents.
You have such a beautiful way of expressing and your words are so lovely.
I often look out our stairway window when going to bed and see the gorgeous and magical stars, and think of my dear Dad.
Sending big hugs to you

Bilancia Designs said...

You've done it to me AGAIN....
Tears rolling down my face.
No one does this to me except you!
What a beautiful poet you are ...AMAZING..
Sending you huge hugs this morning...
Off to design some flowers!!! :) :)
Love you! xoxo

koralee said...

Such a beautiful post my friend...your words have touched us have such a gift. Thank you for never disappointing!
Happy weekend ... we are off to pick up our Molly from Seattle today. xoxo said...

So beautiful Anita. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all of our precious dads, the one's who are already THERE... the crowd up there is growing!

Loi Thai, Tone on Tone said...

What a beautiful and tender post, Anita!! Lovely tribute! Once again, thank you for sharing your gift with words. And have you created any new paper sculptures / art? Enjoy the weekend :)

Unknown said...

Anita~such a heartfelt and moving tribute. I see my dear dad in the sunsets-they were always his favorite.
xx, Heather

Sylvia said...

Sometimes there are no words to express my gratitude to you for moments like this... for the emotions and the tenderness that your poems evoke in my heart ... Brilliant!

Palomasea said...


I am trying to leave a message again...I hope this will take...

Precious one, this is a most beautiful poetic tribute to love brought me to tears, of course...

Their light is reflected in you, and you, in turn, bring so much light to our world....they do indeed shine on....
You are a blessing, dear sister...

This song is so beautiful...
Many hugs to you,
Love you.

francis said...

Good morning Anita
It's sunday morning overhere .
I had Eva for three days so no
blogging for me !
This is such a gift now
sunday morning freh coffee and reading and watching and listening .
When I see pictures on pinterest I always know which ones are pinned by you !

Listening to Audrey

francis said...

something went wrong
Listening to audrey
I realised how unique
our voice is too.
I am having a new coffee
and will muse about all you wrote
overhere .
Have a happy sunday my friend

Maria said...

Dear Anita...I fall in LOVE with our free dimensional skies every time I look up and feel the bigger connection with the whole fast universe, each evening....I know and always have felt the bigger picture...Bless you and your dear loved ones, who this wonderful tribute is dedicated too....~ I LOVED it soo....With kindest thoughts from my little corner to yours...Maria x

koralee said...

Wishing you a very Blessed Sunday dear one. My Molly is home so I am one happy momma today. After church I hope to enjoy my garden...fingers are crossed our sun will pop out on this SUNday. First I must finish my cup of earl grey...wish I could meet you somewhere today and have a good girlfriend kind of day..oxo

Unknown said...

Hello Anita,

Stars and love, what a beautiful connection. Your post is beautiful and so moving.

I have been a bit MIA lately. My daughter Sarah graduated from University, and we had a big party for her and her finance who also graduated on the same day. It was lovely.

Wishing you a beautiful day.


Rustic Vintage Country said...

I can only echo all of the above comments, such a wonderful moving post! x

Ivy Clad said...

Hello there, friend. This is a beautiful tribute to your mom, & it's awesome that you keep her near in your memory.

I hope you're having a good weekend. :-)

Christel said...

I felt every word, it's as if you are in my head at times Anita. I have been stopping by, reading your beautiful posts, but apologize for not always commenting. It seems not of abundance lately, but obviously for you, passion is! warmest fairy hugs, always, Christel

hi-d said...

Oh Anita...what a sad thing to lose your mom as well as your dad. They sure raised an amazing daughter---YOU! I know they would be so proud of you.

Love to you!

Style Diary Of A Fashion Fanatic said...

Hello beautiful Anita!!!!
As always you have created magic in a blog post with amazing imagery!!!!! LOVE!!!!!
We woke up this morning & our 16 year old terrier mix, Riley, had major difficulty using his back leg. He is partially blind & deaf with arthritis as he's aged. We aren't sure if this is the end but we can see he is going downhill and it's SO upsetting and sad. We adopted Riley from a shelter about a month after my husband & I got married. This is especially painful for us because he has been with us since the beginning of our lives together.
I always wish dogs could live longer!!!! They are members of the family and it's so difficult to watch them be a playful, full of energy puppy to a slowing down, aging dog.
So it was a sad end to our weekend & we sure hope we have some more time with him....
Hope all is great!!!!
Sending luv. & hugs,

francis said...

a poem for you

All that is GOLD
does not GLITTER
not all those who WONDER
are LOST
the old that is STRONG
does not wither
deep ROOTS are not reached
by the frost
from the ashes
a FIRE shall be woken
a LIGHT from the shadows
shall SPRING
renewed shall be blade
that was broken
the CROWNLESS again
shall be KING .

J.R.R. Tolkien .

wishing you a wonderful week and
more and more sunshine

Stacey said...

Heartbreaking and beautiful all at the same time. Your words always evoke such emotion...I hope you're doing o.k. Your parents i'm sure watch over you each day(your angels hovering over your head as you go about your daily activities). Love to you my friend. XX

Unknown said...

Up above the world so high, daddy you are my diamond in the sky.

Denise said...

Always wonderful!You had Me thinking of My parents with longing in My heart.So glad you use your gifts to delight us,your followers and fans.Hugs across the miles-Denise

Anne said...

Anita, this post is profoundly beautiful and sad! To think that your father passed away two weeks afte your mother? I am going tomorrow to visit my father, who will turn 98 this week, and i know that it may be the last time i see him (though i hope not, but at that age...) He misses my mother so much and your words made me hope that his 'light years' will be spent with her.

therelishedroost said...

Just simply beautiful and thought provoking! you are such a talented blogger!! I enjoy reading everyday!
xo Karolyn

Karena said...

Dear Anita a very special memorial to your Mother and Father. Your use of the moon and stars always fills me with mystery and joy!

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♥ Mary Janes TEAROOM said...

Dear Anita, this is such a beautiful tribute to your mum and dad...You have such a gift..I love to read your posts!
Hope you're having a wonderful week,
Susan x

La Petite Gallery said...

Anita, what a beautiful and touching post, Well done, a nice tribute to your Dad and Mom. It brought tears to my eyes.
Be well, be Happy. Yvonne

A Tale of Two Cities said...

I think I shall look at stars in a different way now, when I reflect on their light. As Fathers Day approaches and I'm especially missing my dad, I will take comfort in the light and the love he shines my way. Thank you for touching all our hearts with these words!

renae said...

It is so fun to have a doggie that learns, responds and makes us laugh. I had cats for 16-18 years during my daughters growing up years. But this little gal will keep me having a dog til I die. hahahahaha. Dogs are so fun and she is just the right size; not a teeny yappy and not a large moose.

Personally selected products said...

Anita !!

Is lovely always see your blog!, such poetic you are, such wonderfull is always the time i spend reading and watching your blog.
Oh tnanks Anita

You are Lovely


Jennifer Beaudet said...

Wow! Anita! This is amazingly beautiful and touching. You are so talented! I love this!

Draffin Bears said...

Dear Anita,

Precious tribute to your dear Mother and Father, very poignant.
Thank you so much for your kind visit and hope that you are enjoying a happy week


Francine Gardner said...

Dear Anita, Thank you for giving us such poignant, beautiful words of love and hope.

smartcat said...

Lovely thoughts for beloved parents. How fortunate you are to have had them in your life.

koralee said...

Good Morning...rain drops here today...but that is fine..I have a pretty new umbrella to try out on the playground at recess. Only a few more of those recess duties this year my friend! I am soon to kick up my heels as Summer days will soon be here. Are you in your garden today? You should see my PEONIES....they are beyond beautiful! xoxox Hugs.

La Petite Gallery said...

Dear Anita, Just had to come back after your lovely comment. I lost my Day when I was 22, he was 53, Cancer. Mamma was 2003. I have been dreaming of them a lot the last few weeks.
As long as they are in our hearts they never Die. yvonne

Stacey said...

Hi lovely!
Popping by to wish you the loveliest of days! I adore your aura and spirit. Much love my friend:-)

The Dutchess said...

Sooo beautiful...thank you xoxo..I know how it feels..

Linda @ Life and Linda said...

Anita dear, your post is so touching. How special this is.
I know your parents are in your heart always. Makes you think when we gaze up at the stars.
You always have such a lovely way of writing deeply touching posts. I hope your week is going well. XO Linda

Anonymous said...

Your parents must have been extraordinary people. They shine through you!

The Dutchess said...

Are you not my Blog-Sister ..:)

Hugs from the Hilltop..

Deborah said...

So beautiful Anita!
What an honour to have such well-loved parents!
Sending you much love today sweet friend xo

All my heart,
Deborah xoxooxo

koralee said...

Dear friend....yahooooo...the mail lady made me very happy yesterday. I got the sweetest little package...oh my friend your little bluebird is adorable...this sweet little petite painting sits on my window ledge in my kitchen and I smile everytime I see are such a dear. What thoughtfulness and talent you have my truly are a blessing to me. Thank you thank you thank the little package tags are so lovely. Oh dear friend...what would I do without you?? Just had to pop by this morning before I ran out the door...consider yourself HUGGED!

renae said...

Oh thanks for liking my 'NEW' pencil skirt. I got such a deal on it. Reg: $34! So happy I snatched it when I did. JCP is a cool store these days. Their prices are better than Targets on most items. And, they are always marking things down fast. New fave store! Thanks for the love and the snaps and the fun you always bring to me.

Kirsten Steen said...

Beautiful Anita! And sad. Wishing you a good father's day. It (and Mother's Day) are so very hard for so many. Wishing you peace and love with your memories.
xoxo, Kirsten

hi-d said...

Hi my friend!

I have missed you! I am sorry for being so bad about commenting/replying lately. How are you? How is the job search? I hope you are able to at least enjoy the summer off and enjoy your writing classes. Thanks for your sweet comments and wishes. I hope you have a blessed weekend. I know it's not an easy one for you.

Love u my Dear!

Ivy Clad said...

Hi Anita, thank you so much for your visits everyday these last few days. I always look forward to what you have to say. If I could only be as consistent as you are about messages, I'd be so happy. :)

I hope you have a peaceful weekend.

Palomasea said...

Good Morning, dear enjoyed the images of LIGHT? I can't wait for the new post..
The moonlit white garden was especially for YOU! :)
Thank you, and Love You!

Cheryl said...

Breathtaking, as always, Anita.

One Shabby Old House said...

I don't believe there to be another blog out here that touches the heart of so many readers such as yours. The emotions of your posts always bring me to pause and reflect on the emotions they stir up in me.
Having lost both mother and father my heart connects with yours.
Sometimes I even catch a glimse of my mother from the light in the mirror. She is looking back at me. And I know that as long as I look for it, her light will always be there.

La Petite Gallery said...

Back again, Thanks for the comment. Renee and I are planing to build a Fairy House. Have you seen the movie
about the English Fairies? The two little girls who set the world
crazy, with the photo's
It was a true story.

There really is a one way ticket to Mars..

Anonymous said...

Wow! This was amazing. I love how you wrote this and how everything flows together. The stars’ dying is my favorite part because it is something that we take advantage of. We all end someday but it is nice to think the stars are waiting for us.

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La Petite Gallery said...

Anita, glad you stopped by. In fact
I am so happy you came home safe.
We also has tons of rain, I feel like the grass grows faster than we can cut it.
Be well and have a Sunny weekend. yvonne

Unknown said...

How wonderful that I just happened to come upon your site! Your words along with your carefully chosen pictures are inspiring, heartfelt and bring such truthful emotions to the surface with such beauty. Thank you.

Paula said...

Wow...I have no words except...Amazing!!!